I Did Not Know

I Did Not Know

by Helena Cull

I did not know
that I could feel
real joy from unseen cause
I had not let
my mind be still
with clever thought on pause.

I could not hear
beyond my wants,
my fantasies and fears
I did not sense
the present peace
for striving, strain and tears.

I had not touched
the heart of faith
for I lacked humble poise
I could not face
the emptiness
below self’s faulty noise.

I could not see
the offered hope:
a child of God, your role!
but then the good news
force of Truth
was poured into my soul.

And now I taste
true gratitude
the more I cease to steer,
in yielding up
the reigns to God
it’s alright to be here.